Funny how life keeps going no matter what, you know when
people say, don't feel so bad, no matter how bad things are there is always
someone who has it worse. Ever feel like you were that person who had it worse?
God, life is a funny little cycle and time stops for no one,
does it? We do our best and make our plans and strive to reach our goals, but
some days no matter how you try, there is a monkey wrench and it is jammed
right in the middle of everything causing all your hard work to fall apart.
Life is balance and 9 times out of 10 so rarely does any of
us actually have the balance we need in order to survive these bumps. We go day
to day with our routines thinking there is an end in sight and when that end
comes and it is never what we had planned; it makes us feel like we did
something wrong.
But guess what, your not alone and you did nothing wrong.
Its called life. We can plan as much as we want and be prepared, but no amount
of strength or preparation will ever make the bumps any smoother. Some things
do not have visible answers, hell, some things have no answer at all. It simply
is what it is, good, bad or indifferent. At the end of our life when we have to
answer to our maker, I imagine that is when all the mysteries will be revealed.
But, who knows? As I have planned this day to come I also think, it most likely
will never be like I imagined.
Call it a mid life crisis or a bout of depression or maybe
things are right on track for you at the moment. Regardless the state you are
in nothing is permanent and nothing lasts forever. When the tide rolls in and
we are treading water and struggling to breathe; we have to tell ourselves this
too will pass. When we are on top of the world and everything falls right into
place, enjoy it while you can, because it will eventually fade as well.
To live with the philosophy that nothing is permanent some
find to be grim and bleak. But I find it to be my comfort when I feel like the
world is focused on killing my spirit. There is nothing, absolutely nothing
that lasts forever. But maybe that belief is not the complete truth either?
Humans are riddled with flaws and imperfections, but it is
also our nature to nurture and build bonds that cannot be broken by these
cycles of hard times. I used to live my life by the philosophy that nothing is
permanent, but here I am learning yet again. There is one thing that is
constant, there is a monkey wrench that messes with my program of belief.
When I look back on my life and all the hard times I have
been through it is true with time the sorrow did pass and the monkey wrench
that broke the cycle of sadness was always love. When things were great those
good times were always shared with those closes to me and their pride for me
was shown through their love. When we lose someone close to us, the love never
dies, in fact, it is felt even stronger with their passing.
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